Doing and teaching

I saved these two images to my computer to remind me that we are to be as Christ. Christ did and Christ taught. For those of you taking my P23 study thanks so much for the blessing it has been for me. The teaching part I have thoroughly enjoyed...This week God has been pressing upon me the doing. If you look at the young girls face above...it is an indication of the beauties that are currently waiting in China. Many wait in vain as there is just such a huge need. All too often we know or sense that we are to do something. What usually happens is that through our indecision we end up doing nothing. I made a vow this year that I would cease to do this. That in order for my life to move forward towards what God's plan for my life is it won't happen as long as I stand still. I don't think it says anything in the bible..."seek yea first the Home and Garden channel"...or "seek yea first the computer"...no God says "seek yea first the Kingdom of God". I am humbled by what God has been teaching me lately. I had the opportunity to go see the Watoto Children's Choir last Sunday. INCREDIBLE!! A group of orphans from Uganda travelling the world singing of God's incredible hand on their lives. What an incredible ministry this is in Uganda. God placed on our hearts when we were in China to begin doing something for the children waiting and left behind. The Watoto orphanage villages in Uganda are an incredible example of when Christians act as Christ acts and truly "cares for the widows and orphans". These children said that they had no hope and once they went to these villages they received the hope that only Jesus gives. God has a plan for the lives of the orphans in Uganda and I believe with all my heart that He has a plan for the children left behind in China. Mike and I have made the decision to pursue a trip to Uganda putting together a missions team to see first hand how this holistic approach to raising orphans is working. Please pray that if this is God's will that the finances and doors will open to travel and that the Lord would reveal to us the others who are to go with us. Also please pray that as I begin working on the proposal for the Chinese government that they would open their hearts to this kind of orphan village and that the children's spiritual needs will get the approval of the gov't and moral teaching would be allowed in this country. God is moving and we are attempting to do that which we believe He would have us do. I will keep you updated on our progress.

I'll move onto other things now. Emily struggled a bit with me being away. Four days was hard on her. I've noticed since I've been back when I put her to bed now she cries a bit and she is clinging. However, while I was away she did great. A good friend looked after her for to mornings - praise God for friends- and Emily did great. I had to work this week one day and spoke at a ladies conference this weekend so I am looking forward to relaxing this week. It has been a busy busy two weeks. We went swimming this week. We all ended up in the hot tub because...well...one of the kids had an "accident" in the pool. Poor Bernice one of the Mom's in our group was in the pool after it was "evacuated" and was wondering...."where have all the people gone"...when she got the news! Let's just say I'm sure her feet didn't even hit the bottom of the pool before she was out. So the whole pool was closed down...because of the "incident". Son #1 has me addicted to Vanilla Milk thingys at Starbucks...so stinking good! Can you tell I'm excited he works today so I can get one yum yum...I'm gonna miss that kid when he moves. Where has the time gone. My #1 is moving away...how did that happen. When did that happen! He such an incredible young Godly man...both my boys are. Love em love em! I have a praise item this week at the top of my list is that a dear friend of ours finally finally got the call from the RCMP (no not that call) He wants to be one not run from one...He is leaving Mother's day which is kind of crappy for his wife and cutie patootiest baby boy ever...but God has been so faithful to them and we are so proud of him and can't wait to see him in his Red Outfit...Well I guess they call it something more manly than an outfit but you know what I mean. Well that's it for now I'm going to nap while Emily is napping...yes I've been reduced to a napper but I'll take it...snore...snore....Mama out.

Ladybug sighting, Easter Girl and a bit Homesick

I'm away in Calgary at the moment missing my family but thought I'd take the time away to update my blog. I love the ladybug picture of Emily and she was a princess on Easter morning. What a time to get my two big kids excited for me so I could have the "perfect" Easter morning for Emily's first Easter with us. It was a wee bit chaotic....let's just say two days after Easter I realised that she didn't open her Easter basket...now what kind of a loser is that for a mother...too funny. Let's just keep it our little secret! I have been in Calgary on business for the last few days...I know I know...it was unavoidable and God has been so good to meet me in my quiet time here. Once I got here. For those of you that know me know I hate to fly. Without my happy pills I am a bit of a basket case. Well top that off with a bit of stress from leaving. Did I mention I have an incredible husband who supports me in all I do and is an awesome Dad! Back to the flight. I'm on the plane and I had to buy business class because the plane was booked so it was nice to be in the big seat. It's funny what I think about during turbulence. What kept coming to me is "I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me" and since we're going to crash "Thank you Lord my laundry is caught up". How crazy is that since it is actually what went through my mind. Now the turbulence lasted for an hour yes an hour. It started right at the beginning of the flight and didn't stop and well my happy pills were in my purse...IN THE OVERHEAD COMPARTMENT! What was I thinking. Twenty minutes into the bumping around I could feel my face on fire...I'm sure I looked like a big red tomato. I just repeated...the LORD is my shepherd. For an hour I prayed, praised, cried, worshipped and realised that through the bumps is when our dependence on God jumps into high gear. Now the good news is I fly back tomorrow...pray for me y'all that the flight is smooth...I've had enough bumps this week now let's hope God agrees with me...Mama on the move out.

They're Back Just in Time for the Probiotic Challenge!

One of the things I was so looking forward to when moving to the country was the peace and quite and living with the wildlife. That was before the wildlife took over our life. It started when we lived in Fall River and put up with the attack owl, ghostly loons, suicidal rabbits and well just stupid hosta eating deer. That was the old house. This is a new lake with new critters. There is the ancient deer path that runs across our driveway. You know, kind of like the elephants in Africa well we have a herd of deer in Oakfield. What this means is anytime day or night you may round a corner only to have four or five deer jump in front of the vehicle. I've threatened to have one of our friends bring their gun during hunting season....bwahhahahaha...kidding, kidding.....well not really. Next we contended with the nervous, insane racing pheasant. Yes every so often it runs in front of the vehicles straight down the middle of the driveway at about 40 km's per hour every two seconds turning and looking over it's shoulder with a look of sheer terror in its eyes....just get off the road...crazy bird! Squirrels love to torture our dogs dropping nuts on their heads and well the loons are back. The Canada geese arrived last week....honk...honk...honk.....all hours of the night only! Good thing they are protected like the attack owl was or there would be a few less Canada Geese flying south in the fall. We have a colony of bats that live in our back yard that comes out at dusk. Sort of like Transylvania out back. They love to eat bugs so I'll put up with them as long as they keep eating bugs. However, nothing is as bad as well I'm not really sure what they are. I say they because there are many many many of "them". At about 12:00-1:00 in the morning what seems like hundreds of well let's call them jungle birds perch in the trees outside out window and well make jungle bird sounds most of the night. Now we have gotten used to them but I've also gotten accustomed to the quiet of the winter night. Well spring is here and well the critters have returned. Nearly hit four deer leaving the driveway, the loons are apparently mating, the geese well I'm not sure what they're doing maybe rebuking the loons for mating....who knows but they aren't doing it quietly and well the jungle things are back.....mmmmm....country living. Now that my sleep is disrupted by the critters I can sort of live with this however what is really killing me is probiotics. What is it you say....I wish I had known about a week ago. Son #1 asked me to take the probiotic challenge. It's a certain bacteria that is added to yogurt that is really really good for your bowels. My bowels were just fine thank you! That should have been my first clue! Just eat this yogurt for 14 days and your better than new....right? Maybe? Two days into this I asked Son#1 to look and see what it does to a person. Well warning probiotics may cause bloating and diarrhea. I can confirm that you can change the may to will!! I'm sure my bowels will be fine as will the rest of my family because well you fill in the rest. Mama bloated, sleepless and well belly grumbling signing out.

Thank You For Being a Friend!

Lola Wan is one of Emily's sisters from China. She is the youngest of the group. How is this for the cutest pic. She's smiling at Son #2 who has a way with the ladies apparently. I Emily and Lola had a hoot playing together. It was so nice to see her smiley face. I took this picture while they were both standing by the fireplace...don't yah just love it! One of my favorite pics.

What a week! It was go go go. Emily tried new things, met new friends and saw some familiar faces this week. We brought Campbell ( Emily's boyfriend) home a little Chinese outfit. How cute does he look. It was too funny because both of them were like greased pigs...slip slidding away. The only way that we could get Cam to remotely want to put up with us girls was to feed him Teddy Grahams. Emily never had those before. Bears with sugar yah..guess who loved them. Now that I think about it I loved them too. We went swimming and Emily loved it. Now I did take my boys swimming years and years ago but my how things change. Like the changing room. I went into the changing room late (I know....don't ask) it was a little further than I thought. I rush into the change room a bit frazzled, you see because I am a well kept woman and usually have three men in tow to open doors, carry bags, well just do what I need done. Mama was on her own. Bags and baby hanging off of me and in the family changing room I go. I quickly find my friends from China who are way more on the ball than I am. They have water diapers...what the heck are they? I will be getting some for this week. They are in their suits and babies ready to swim. Now luckily I had our suits on under our clothes and you will better understand why in a minute. I put Emily on the floor which by the way is wet and there is no where to sit her so on the knap sack she goes. I take off my pants just in time for the guy to walk by.....yes GUY! Since when do the guys and girls change together...I guess that's what family changing room means. Well thank goodness I had my suit on because I would have so dropped my pants with men in the room. Mercy what next. So we make it to the pool and it really was lovely. The water was warm, the company was great and Emily did love it. She chattered her teeth a fair bit but for the most part she loved it. Now getting dressed again was another story. I had the brainwave..."ok Julie dress the baby first". Right - Wrong! Now she's dressed I'm soaked the floor is soaked. Oh and I forgot to mention that the shower was like little needles she didn't like it much and in order to wash her off I had to let the shower hit me...so I was pretty much drenched...hair and all. Did I mention I didn't bring a coat either. Man what a laugh. I had to laugh because I'm soaking wet...trying to get undressed hoping the door won't open or a guy walk in...babies on the floor in the tiny change room...and I get a hot flash. Where are my men to pick up my bags, pick up the baby, open the door...ooops forgot I'm alone. My pants were falling down cause I forgot to tie them, I'm wearing a 2xl sweatshirt of my DH's ...hair wet and flat to my head...knapsack on one aim, swimming bag on the other, baby in front...and me walking with my legs two feet apart so my stupid pants won't fall down around my ankles...all this and steam rising from me as I walking to the van without a coat. Let's just say the Tim's I had later tasted really really good. I so suck on my own. God knows that and that's why he put me with such attentive guys. I have to do laundry next week. Yes I say week because I'm behind a week in it. Does the term mountain of laundry mean anything! Not complaining though I actually don't mind doing it. Oh the pants falling down thing....I went back to Weight Watchers. I gave a big story about the binge and how I wasn't ever coming back and that I probably gained yatta yatta...stepped on the scale and lost 2.8lbs...how incredible is that. That is a miracle! My brother and sister-law hit their goal weight this week...not with WW but another place. He lost 100.5lbs and she lost 52ish lbs. I'm so proud of them both. Son#1's birthday is next week and he'll be 18. I truly is hard to believe that 18 years have passed us by. I'm so proud of him. He just received his official acceptance to school and it's official at the end of June he's on his own. I'm surely going to miss him tons but God has great things planned for him I'm sure so I will release him gladly into God's hands. We had our first playgroup on Thursday which was nice to see the babies playing together. I took pictures but don't have them uploaded in time for this post. Emers had her first night terrors last week. I think it was because she missed a few naps. She loves her sleep and catching a catnap here and there doesn't work too well for her. She went ballistic. I tried calming her for at least 2 minutes. She was hysterical. I finally had to sit her on the change table and take her little face in my hands and tell her "it's ok baby girl ,you're here, you're home". That calmed her enough to at least let me console her. On a final note I sent an email out to everyone I had on my address book regarding a research project I'm doing for a book I'm writing. If you didn't receive a copy of the request and explanation make sure you put your email address in the comments and I'll send it along to you. I'm very excited about it. I've had a goob of people sign up to help. More than I thought would. My hope is to have people young, old, male, female from different parts of the world and backgrounds to participate. Please if your able I promise it will be a blessing. I think that's it for this weeks wrap up. Sorry for the delay in posting I was on the move but this coming week should be better. Oh, I have the Global stuff and our China video that I will be posting on Emily's website this week. I will let y'all know when it's done. Have a great night. Mama out.

I'm Back....and wide awake!

Wow where has the time gone. It seems that I'm just coming up for some air! Good thing I bought myself a Grande Low Fat Extra Hot Chai Tea Latte or you may not have heard from me tonight. I'm wired for sound baby. It's after 10:oo and usually I am facing forward snoring at the ceiling by now but I'm probably going to have to take a happy pill to bypass the caffeine. Yikes. My DH had a Caramel Machiatto (probably spelled wrong). His eyes are oh about the size of two golf balls and only not white but all pupil. We've been busy busy. Hope y'all caught the Global special last week. I thought they did a good job. I was a bit disappointed as they removed all references to God from it but we sort of half expected that. It actually wasn't as bad as I thought to watch ourselves on tv but it was stressful leading up to it. Vanity all vanity. Son #1's girlfriend and parents visited over the weekend. We had a great time and it was awesome to get to know them all better. Emily's doing just hunky dorey. She's started to hate getting changed. I've turning into a professional wrestler whenever her diaper needs changing. I'm so glad to see the sunshine as we can poke our heads out the door and see the light! We're both a bit no a lot shack cracked. She's eating and sleeping well and is just fitting in fine like she's always been here. She's gaining weight like crazy. Oh she got two more shots last week. Not as awful as the last time but let's just say the doctor's off the Christmas list. I can't believe that Easter is just around the corner. Time is flying. I'm writing like crazy. Looking for a few volunteers to read some stuff and give me some insight and honest feedback so if your interested give me an email and when it's ready I'll send it off. Emily and I are starting to go swimming next week which should be interesting. She seems to love the water but a big old pool might be a different thing. My little China girl is super super headstrong. Wonder who that is like. She's learned very quickly persistence. It's funny because Son #2 could be left in a room full of alligators and if I said don't touch he wouldn't touch. I'm afraid the alligators would be out of luck with Emers. She'd have them all whipped into shape or beaten to a pulp. We're trying to teach her not to slap faces...yes slap...she draws you in close with the cute patootie puckered up lips and then wham out of nowhere "pow right in the kisser". Oh and the food toss is her new game you know those little cubes of whatever you cut up for her gets chucked pretty much everywhere. Now it's one cube at a time. We start breakfast at 8:00 and finish at oh about 11:30 just in time for nap. Not really but almost. Her new thing is to crawl in the dishwasher. Next time I have to remember to get a picture. When I unload it she loves to crawl on the door the second you turn your back. Her other new thing is to open drawers and close them on her fingers can you say scream at the top of her lungs. Son #2 had the brainwave one day to teach her how to climb the stairs she now has a one track mind....."must reach the stairs"! All and all it's awesome being home. I'm definitely in a routine but it's all good. That's it from our house. Mama out.

Children of the East

We found out from Global that they are going to begin airing our story in four parts starting on Tuesday March 6th. Tuesday is the story leading up to our trip and Wednesday is when we return back and life after China. Don't miss Thursday they will be interviewing Daisy a wonderful young woman who was adopted from China when she was 11. She's 21 now and just a fantastic young woman. Her story is awesome. Friday is the final segment and will show the Chinese adoption community here and how as parents and children we are supported and how the children's heritage is kept alive. It should be interesting. I'm nervous and not really sure why. I hope that it is honoring to the process. I must say that the folks from Global were amazing and they are going to give us a copy of the program and all of the raw footage they took and they also took our China video and saved it to a DVD for us as well so as soon as we get it I will upload the videos to Emily's website. This week has been busy busy. I started running on the treadmill and I've been going to Weight Watchers...so five days of killing myself on the treadmill I get weighed in and I actually gained weight. I of course did what any self respecting dieter would do...I ordered a donair pizza, ate two bags of tortilla chips, half a fruit cake, a pan of rice crispy squares and something that resembled an ice cream sandwich. Now don't worry I didn't eat it all at once I spread the binge out over 3 days but this morning I got up and got back on the treadmill. It's all good....ups downs. Just like life. Everyone just stayed clear. Now did I mention the weight I gained was .4lbs not 4 lbs but point 4. Imagine loosing it over point 4 but oh baby did I. I need to put something in place to stop myself from self destructing like that...how about a muzzle. Just kidding. Life at home is settling in nicely. I'm into a routine now I just need to source out a play group or maybe a swim lesson. Emily loves the water and what better way to remove the worry about living on a lake just teach her how to swim. I'll let you know how that turns out. Well I'd better get supper on the table for my men. This is TV Mama out!

Happy New Year Angel Girl!

Emily went to her first Chinese New Year celebration at our friends the Lai's house. She was too too cute in her red and gold satin New Years outfit. She's getting much better in crowds but still somewhat keeps her distance...with one exception her new friend Dean. She LOVED him and why wouldn't she we love him too! She thought he was too cool and loved little Jaxon's toys too. She's been eating much better and is growing like a weed. She's in size 24 months now. I'm starting to try and take her out more just to get her accustomed to different people. I'm going to look around this week for a play group and maybe something at a pool just to get her in shape for boogie boarding this summer. I've been writing tons while I'm home. My goal this year is to finish my book. I've been working and concentrating on searching through the bible using my concordance and the Hebrew and Greek dictionaries. Sounds snore...boring but whoa baby does God bless when you really dig down into His Word. My DH and I started to reread the Purpose Driven Life again today. We've committed to each other that we are going to devote the next 40 days to seeking Gods purpose. My desire has always been that God use me to Make a Big Difference in the lives of others and to use my life for a special purpose to serve others. Please pray for me as I pray and study that God would open the doors for myself and my family. We received good news about Son #1 yesterday. He got back safe and sound by the way from his trip thanks so much for your prayers. Oh back to the good news about Son #1 he's been accepted once again at camp for the summer. He applied for a different position First Aid/ Spiritual Advisor which is a senior leadership position and he got it which is great. It will get him deeper into God's word, pay him more money and he'll have an opportunity to counsel every child that makes a decision for Christ. How awesome is that. He is over the moon. I started running on the treadmill this week. I've actually enjoyed it as I plugged Son #2's Ipod in my ears and ran for over 1/2 an hour. This is my year baby. Well that's it for tonight. Did I mention that Emily loves loves loves the boys and they love love love her. Just a treat and my heart sings when I see them together. This is Mama on a Sunday night out!

My Head is a Box Filled With Nothing!

Ok...so today I'm in my house looking after the baby and I got a brainwave to start her on the toddler cereal....now those that have been following my blog might remember and should be screaming right now "NO NOT THE TODDLER CEREAL"...apparently I forgot it was this very cereal that I fed her just before she had her barf fest just a mere few weeks ago. Completely oblivious in my OFCRAA state (that's Over Forty and Can't Remember Anything Anymore ) seems I can't remember my name half the time so cereal out of sight out of mind. I mix up a big old bowl of this stuff. Feed her the whole bowl...then feel guilty that I'm not rolling around on the floor enough with her. On the floor I go which in itself is a feat and low and behold "Thar She Blows Again"! I heard the rumble and just before the rumble happened I had a flashback on the cereal. What a mess and I mean a mess. I stripped her upstairs and put her right in the tub. She must be PMSing because oh baby she had attitude today so I put her for a nap a little early. Gathered up the barf clothes and put them in my great front loading washer I bought from my friend Shaun. Now this is the part where my head is a box filled with nothing. Apparently I also picked up something else and put it in the washer. Now not to worry it wasn't as bad as the time my DH's sister put Kitty Mitty in the dryer but after the rinse finished I opened up the washer and well if you can imagine a kleenex times....let's say a trillion. That's what was all over everything. For a nanosecond I thought it was the barf had baked or something? It took me a while to figure out what in the name of goodness it was! It wasn't until I pulled out the shell that I remembered taking the diaper to put it in the garbage and in my barf stupor opened up the washer and chucked it in. Not to worry Pooh Bear survived on the front I couldn't bear (no pun intended) killing Pooh (hahahahaha again no pun intended). Ok so I'm giddy tonight. I love this song that's playing. My friend Chris found it for me and I listened to it a million times on the beach in Ingonish last summer and every time I listen to it I'm transported to Black Brook Beach in the sun with the surf smashing on the sand. All you Ingonisher's reading this know what I'm talking about! The song captured my day so I thought I'd share it. I might go to Ingonish with Emers for a month this summer. I might become a bohemian and just stay there camping till someone comes looking for me. Someone will come looking for me right? Emily was into everything she shouldn't have been today. It was like you fed me something to make me barf I'm going to make you earn your vacation pay today Mama! My DH's family had a welcome home party for Emily yesterday. I had a great time. Just an intimate group but really just the right amount. She got some great things and I had a chance to catch up with family. What was great was it was like Emily knew it was family because she was super comfortable. I've been told that not leaving us or being "strange" with others is a good thing because it means she's bonded. So I don't sweat that she likes being with us because that's a good thing. We finish our interview with Global this week so I'll keep ya'll up to date on the time that it will air. Pray please for Son#1 he's headed to NB on Thursday and that he will arrive safely. Oh and I almost forgot I have a Praise Item for God....the Alongside Ministry called last week to ask if we would like some homemade meals to help us settle in. What a blessing. My friend Janice dropped supper off tonight and it was to die for! She called and I would have kissed her right then and there with the day I had. Just hectic not bad. If any of you reading this are part of that ministry it is awesome! God picked the right day to have supper arrive. My family was pretty excited too. A home cooked meal is a great thing....a home cooked meal dropped off by someone else is a God thing! I got my camera back and charged so my next posts will have pictures of the bambino! Mama grateful for her church, grateful for her God and Grateful for her family out.

Snot Suckers, Tv's and The Pillsbury Dough Girl

The snot sucker is my friend! I had forgotten about this little tool that mother's use. You know the thing that looks like a mini turkey baster that you simply squeeze first then jam it up your child's nose and viola you are left with either a string of sticky snot hanging from the child's nose or a booger firmly lodged in the tool. Now the booger thing is awesome because the snot sucker can also be used as a booger launcher. Let's just say that the boys have been extra special listeners since the snot sucker arrived. I was wondering today, who invents something like this? A mom that's who. A Mom who was sitting shack cracked for some adult conversation and her mind wandered in her delirious state thinking..."hey if I take one of those rubber balls my little angel is playing with and attach an eye dropper to the end I bet it would suck snot...all you Mom's out there you know I'm right. My little bundle of joy is leaking body fluid everywhere. She's teething. Yes our sweet China girl looks like a drooling mad dog...her nose is running, her mouth is running, her eyes are running and as Son#1 put it when he was changing her...."Mom she has a rash on her woofy...you might want to check". Let's just say that I'm sure he didn't dream 6 months ago that the term rash and woofy would be used with his Mother in a million years. The young men in my house have been awesome with Emily. They have babysat a couple of times and like clockwork each time she had a big ole poop. I'm kind of excited by it because well....I'm liking that they have to change it. Sweet Victory for me I say. I have officially shut the TV off in the day time...well most of the daytime...I can't miss Oprah. A dear friend of mine described a tv addict today turning into..."a one eyed monster'. I can believe it. Ask me ask me about any crazy talk show and I can answer it and well I've remodelled my house a million times after watching 3 weeks of Trading Spaces, Decorate My Space, How Not to Decorate, Clean Sweep and praise the Lord What Not to Eat....all that show did was make me hungry. I'm finding my days more bearable now that I'm not addicted to the tube. I found out a couple of things this week....vinegar strips the finish off of prefinished floors (don't ask), when checking the babies sheets for "stuff" check all the blankets (not just the sheets), I still love to lick the cake bowl and when you're over forty you can't eat raw dough anymore. Yes Raw Dough....I know I know you health nuts are cringing right now but in my Newfoundland home growing up we ate baked dough, fried dough and on occasion (for me whenever Mom made bread) RAW DOUGH. I love raw dough or should say loved it! Apparently I must have eaten it after it rose because take it from me never never eat dough before it has risen cause well it rises in your belly, it rises in your esophagus and in other places to personal to mention...I was kind of like the Pillsbury Dough Girl if you know what I mean. Takes about 24 hours to go away! No more dough for Mama. Life on the Mommy train is getting better. The house is clean "today", I'm settling in "sort of" and I truly am loving my family life "for real". God is so good. God has truly blessed us and I can't even remember what we did before Emily arrived, I'm just glad that she did. Mike and I are truly becoming more and more dedicated to the cause of Orphans in the world. We aren't sure how God is going to use us beyond what he already has however we are certain that we will do whatever He wants us to do to help and be a voice. Here is a scary statistic, the United Nations estimates that there are over143 million orphans in the world right now. How crazy is that! That's almost 5 times the population of Canada! There is so much that we can do...short term, long term missions, maybe adopting again, helping other families know the joy of adoption, helping to connect children with families or funding to families...there are tons of opportunities. Please pray that we would know God's will for us in this matter. What an awesome opportunity! At home and beginning to love it...Mama out!

A Shot Heard Across HRM

Yesterday was the day that we started to re-immunize Emily. Our doctor recommended repeating all of her immunizations just to ensure that she is protected. After yesterday I think that it's the doctor that needs protection. Let's just say our sweet little baby turned into an alien from another planet. I think that it's safe to say that she isn't super fond of needles. The first one was bad but the second one was heard in Bedford I'm sure. The good news is we have eight more to go. She didn't get sick just ticked. I'm having some trouble settling into the pace of my new life. The term shack cracked is coming to mind. Now I know I know...I'm not complaining I'm learning that this "Be still" thing that God is teaching me isn't going to be easy. Being the high energy person I am I suddenly feel like I'm moving in slow motion. God continues to teach me that I need Him. I see that the hardest part of this hiatus from work is going to be the hiatus from work. How pathetic is that! So as Son #2 says occasionally...."Suck it up Princess"! So this is Mama...sucking it up and signing out for the night.

Smoochy Girl

Ok for those of you that know me my favorite thing to do is smooch babies...do yah think Emily has seen me coming at her one too many times....hee hee...you go girl. Thanks Scott for this picture we loooovvvve it. What a sweety. We're all sort of back to normal in our house barfing and pooping has stopped,with the grown people anyway. The pooping with the baby that's gonna stay for quite sometime. She is settling in so well and loves to nap Hallelujah Praise God. It so neet to see how as she becomes more comfortable with us little things change. Little things like this morning when she woke up and talked to the bear in her bed instead of screaming....little things like touching a strangers hand.....little things like sitting on a friends lap.....little things like blowing kisses and picking up a cheerio and actually making it to her mouth! Every day she is growing and everyday she is trusting just a little bit more. Like all new children you worry about whether you'll adjust, you worry about your free time, you worry about the change and then you realise once they arrive what would you do without them and can't quite remember life before them. We are now blessed times three and I'm just as smiley over the looks on the faces of my guys as I am about the look on the face of my smoochy girl....Mama out.

Thar We All Blow!

What a wicked couple of days. It started with me on Sunday night. We had friends over for the Super Bowl and I started to feel queasy and my belly was a wee bit flip floppy. By about 11:30 I found my friend Mr. Toilet Bowl and we became intimate friends, real intimate friends. I visited my new friend about once every half hour whether I needed to or not. We got to know each other really really well. Just when I thought I couldn't possibly stand my new friend anymore it just got worse until at last 7 hours later I slept. Then I slept and slept and slept and slept some more. Good thing My DH was there to care for Baby Emily cause I sure couldn't unless he put her in the toilet bowl...and well they frown on that. Now if it ended there that would be normal but here in this household normal is not a word we use much or at least it never seems to work out that way lately. Son #1 and Son #2 babysat while my DH went to an appointment. By 8:30 Son #1 was introducing himself to my new friend and Son #2 wasn't far behind. Now that wouldn't have been too bad however when my DH insisted on meeting my new friend we now had 4 out of the 5 people in the house dying to meet Mr. Toilet, Mr. Bowl, The Hurlmyster, and finally Upchuck man. Now women we suffer in silence, not men. I awoke to Son #2 who sounded like he was upchucking a Volkswagen, Son #1 who never did do the throw up thing well did what he usually did and sort of made it to the bathroom. DH came home to much barf and oh did I mention the stupid dog has the runs too! Now all of this from one little baby from China. I can't imagine that this is the bug she had because she was smiley and her usual pleasant self while she was barfing and pooping. I have a whole new respect for her but then of course she is a girl ...the whole suffer in silence thing. At one point I did have a bit of a meltdown because by about 1:00 in the afternoon no one had checked to see if I had croaked so I made an appearance, had the meltdown, did the guilt I almost died speech and just waited for them to get it so I could so pay them all back. I envisioned ways to make them beg for Gatorade but alas I do have a heart and spent the day caring for the three of them. Emily and I are fine. I'm about 4 pounds lighter literally and well God even works out our barfing schedules because if all four of us were hit at the same time with this I don't know what we would have done given Emily won't go with anyone other than us. Well she did actually go to our friend Shelly the other night which is progress! How do you make that phone call...hey Shell....Jul here...we're all pooping ourselves and barfing but if you have a spare minute could yah come and watch the baby...Hopefully we'll all be back to normal whatever that is tomorrow. In the meantime I'm washing the house with disinfectant cause I do not what a double bout of this. Until next timeMama out...(all out if you know what I mean!).

Thar She Blows!

Well we've had an interesting few days. Poor little Emily's tummy has been big time upset over the past two days. It started out on Friday night at Son#2's Basket Ball game which she loved by the way. She was watching the game...had a wee bit of a gag and oh baby did she barf. It was like reliving my parenting years with Son #2. He barfed his way all around the Maritimes and I thought Emily was headed in the same direction but I think now that it might be the formula. As upset as my stomach was in China is as upset her stomach is here. She will drink Pedialyte no problem but the instant I give her any formula it just pours out of her. I don't think it is a flu because she has no fever, she isn't crying and she is in good spirits just barfy. Now this morning when we woke her up she blew again but out a different end if you catch my drift. I was wondering what was on her sheets then realised quickly what it was but couldn't figure out where it came from then noticed that whatever happened down below quickly escaped and migrated up her back out her neck in her ear and well pretty much everywhere else in the bed. She keeps down her cereal and the Pedialyte but nothing else. I'm going to give her tummy a break and not feed her any formula today and see what tomorrow brings. We bought a different type of formula -Soy based so once we change it hopefully it will work for her. I'm slowly but surely getting back into the swing of things. I've been sticking pretty close to home. If there was ever any doubt as to whether I had ADHD I can safely confirm it. This is the most docile and stationary I've been since I had my operation two years ago. God still tells me to "Be Still and Know That I Am God". It's the Be Still part that I'm not great at. Emily had her first day at church this morning and she did really well. We were nervous out how she would take it but she did just dandy. It was like she knew that everyone had prayed for her and that this is home. We pinch ourselves everyday we are so blessed. Mama out!

Jet Lag....ZzZzZzZz

Jet Lag spelled backwards is "Man do you look like a bag of dirt"! Not really but close. I really didn't think that it would be this difficult to adapt to the time change. Emily's done great. Babies are pretty resilient anyway but she's settling in nicely. She hasn't figured out the whole "white folk" thing. She just stares when people aren't looking mesmerized by the difference in our faces compared to the faces she is accustomed too. The smells are different, the sounds are different and definitely the weather is different. Poor little lambie chatters her teeth if the temperature is anything less than 25 degrees. We're all walking around in our underwear cause we're sweating to death so if you're planning a visit for heaven's sake knock. Someone at NSPC is going man what's going on the heat's on at that house! I've adapted well to being a new older Mom again. Our house sitters had to move the T.V. into the kitchen. I can't bring myself to move it back out. I've become addicted to talk shows. You know the kind...."in the case of baby (you fill in the name) you ARE NOT the father"! This t.v. has definitely got to go. Just to let you know how little t.v. I watched prior to this I actually bought a paper before we left and as I read through it the headline was "Sadam Hanged"...gasp....couple of pages in..."Gerald Ford died"...WHAT....couple more pages...."James Brown Gone"...you get the picture. I put the paper down by the way because I just didn't want to see who else bit the dust. Our house now is preoccupied with poop. Yes "was it green"..."ewh it's so black"..."it's hard"..."it was soft" the worries we had a few months ago are non existent. Being a Mature Mama has made for some interesting times. My stamina isn't exactly there anymore especially with the jet lag. It's nice to talk to my younger yummy mommy friends to see what's hot and what's not in baby stuff. I did learn that Baby Mum Mum's are a must. They are crack cocaine to babies or at least that is what one of my friends said and she's right. Baby girl loves them. They're crunchy and she can hold them in her hand and well just keep them comin. I was watching on one of my talk shows that the oldest woman to ever give birth just gave birth to twins, she was 67 years old. Wow I'm a spring chicken compared to 67 I have like 24 more good years left. I was thinking that there is advantages to having children that old. You can nap as much as the baby, you can hey you can breast feed standing up, the Depends are only one aisle over from the Huggies...ok ok...I'll stop. God love her. She did say she was looking for a younger husband dah...someone needs to be alive to raise the little lambies...ok I'll really stop now. Baby girl is sleeping so I'm going to try and unpack another suitcase. Yes I know I know all you organized clean freaks reading this...I still have my luggage all over my living room but it will get done..hopefully before I have to go back to work in September. Remember God Rocks! Have a great day. Mama from the sofa signing out!

Prayer,Friends,Basketball and Ziplock Bags

What a great day! I got goobs done at work and my time is counting down. I received a wonderful email today from a dear friend who recently moved away that just blessed me. She send me a paragraph of truth that met me right where I was today and God spoke to me through it.

"It is good to begin a new year with Jesus!
It is good to sail into the uncharted waters of ’07, because He is your Captain and the anchor of your soul. It is good to walk upon unexplored trails because He is your Guide and the Guardian of your way; It is good to face the unknown because He is your wisdom and the One who knows the beginning and the end.It is good to have your hands empty, for He will fill them; It is good to have your heart open, for He will cause it to overflow; It is good to have your eyes focused, for in His light things will be made clear. It is good to have your ears listening, for His voice will be the sweetest sound you hear; It is good to have your feet grounded, for He is your Rock and the foundation upon which you stand. It is good to trust Him because He makes no mistakes! It is good to serve Him, for He does all things well; It is good to honor Him because He has no equal! It is good to obey Him, for His plans always include what is best. It is good to rest in Him for He is the Lord of the easy yoke; It is good to depend upon Him for He takes care of you daily. It is good to delight in Him, for He is your great reward!!! May the Lord fill your year with GOOD things! "Author, Roy Lessin

What a delight tonight was. Our dear friends came to our home tonight to have pizza, pop, a laugh and an opportunity to pray for us before we left. How blessed we are to have such wonderful men, women and children who love and care for us. I have said this over and over and I count my blessings everyday that we have such incredible, wonderful, Godly, friends and family who care. We spent some time in prayer and I feel cloaked in their prayers and it is an incredible feeling and it will enable us to travel knowing that we are covered!

Everyone went to watch our youngest tonight play basketball. That is so positive for his self esteem to have other adults that support him during this time that is difficult for him to transition to high school basketball. We love that you care!

Finally my zip lock bag addiction is out "of the bag". Hee Hee. I read and heard that people zip locked clothing when packing and you could fit more. Actually I already knew this. So 7 boxes of large, 4 boxes of medium one box of small and a box of snack later we are almost packed. My lips are a wee bit sore from sucking all the air out of them and heaven help me if customs makes me open them all. I did get somewhat carried away as I was teased about tonight let's just say if I can fit a flat screen T.V. in one from China and bring it home for Jim (you know who you are) oh I would so try. Great night and we are going to miss you all but can't wait to go so we can get back. I started a website tonight. I just need to get the address right and I will email tomorrow. That is where our pictures will be posted. I'll probably still post to this and there is a link on the website that will take you directly to this so not to worry but we have password protected the website so that we can keep the pictures somewhat controlled to family and friends. Watch for the email tomorrow. Well back to my ziplocks.....

To Pack or Not to Pack That is the Question!

Well this is sort of what I am feeling like right now. How do I decide what to take and leave behind. The packing lists are humongous and I've been shopping for a week to get everything. I can't believe I'm going to say this but if I have to go shopping again before I leave I'm going to scream! The men in my life say hey two pairs of underwear, jeans and a t-shirt they're good for at least a week. I had a bit of an anxiety attack the last few days. It is really hitting me the awesome responsibility that God has given us to raise this wee one for Him. I am so afraid that I will mess up some how. A dear friend of mine today told me that the two I have are just fine and that it's better to be humble about it than thinking we have it all figured out. Here's what I know without God I am nothing; can do nothing and I take credit for nothing. My poor DH I'm sure just wants to get there he is so excited to try the different foods and all you out there who know him and have travelled with him I doubt he will even sleep. I think about the time we went to Florida and at 4:3o a.m I awoke to find him dressed on the side of the bed saying "are up getting up now"! This is Beijing, heaven help us. We had our final meeting today and got to see everyone. We have been asked by Global to do a story on our trip and will do our first interview on Tuesday night and they will go to the airport with us and be there when we come back hopefully with some of y'all. It will be a permanent record of our journey and we would love to have our friends in it. Well back to my packing and sorting and deciding that no Jules you can't take "everything" with you because we need room to bring stuff back - Yahoo! Please remember us in your prayers this week. I went to get a refill prescription of happy pills for the flight my doctor said is 5 enough...I say how about 30. Let's just say I'm well stocked. Pray for a safe and smooth flight. There is a bad outbreak of the flu in Beijing right now please pray for our health and the health of the families travelling. I'd ask you to pray for patience but I don't need that stress so close to our trip...hee hee. Pray instead that I take it one day at a time and that I fully rely on God. Pray also for Emily and her transition to us. Pray for our trip to the orphanage that it will be a positive experience. Pray for overall safety. Please also pray for our flights that none get cancelled and that the points we booked on don't cause any flights to get messed up please. Last but not least there is another Christian couple travelling with us from B.C. please pray for them and their two children who will also be travelling with our group. We'll miss you all but can't wait to get back and show off our new addition. I can't password protect this blog so if I have time I will be starting a web page that can be password protected but not to worry I'll make sure you have the password. If you don't hear from me though it is this blog I will use. Until my next post.

A Fresh Start

Well it's a New Year and a new day and time for a fresh start. That's what I love about a new year it's a time when I always reflect and it literally is a fresh beginning. Time to start moving! Time to start making a difference. I'm truly looking forward to this year and what God has planned for us. I realise there are no guarantees about what may or may not happen good, bad or otherwise. However, I am prayerfully awaiting what God has in store for us this year. It will be a year of firsts for us. Son#1 is off to University in September, Lord willing. We will have a year of firsts for everything involving Emily. We will travel to China for the first time and hopefully not the last! I'm praying that this will be the year that our group puts out our first CD. Laurie if you're reading this....couldn't resist! So here it is my shortlist of what I want to focus on this year. I want to pray more. I've quickly come to realise the more I pray the more in God's will I am and the more in God's will I am, the better I feel and the better things go (dah go figure). I am going to study as opposed to reading my Bible more. I have a Greek and Hebrew dictionary and love love love it! I am going to be a better Mom and wife this year and I'm really looking forward to caring for my family in more practical ways that I haven't been able to. I will not be working full time at my job for a couple of months and I can't wait to just care for my men and my baby girl! Now I might be screaming in 8 weeks I need work but I hope not I really hope not. Some days I wish I was a "normal" Mom but Son #2 tells me he likes having a "looney" Mom and wouldn't have it any other way. So I guess I can't change now. Pray for Emily...hee hee. One of the things I am most proud of myself for in 2006 is I said I would write more and I did. Goobs more than the year before. I wrote every single day not missing one. What a treat to look back over the year and actually have a written record of the ups and downs of the year. It's a habit I intend to keep. This year I intend to take it one step further and actually finish one of the books I've been working on. I have part of a kids book done, I have part of a business book finished, I have part of a bible study done that has blessed me big time and I have a collection of four or five short stories completed. Blame it on my ADHD but as things whirled around in my head all year I put them down. Now here is what I am praying for 2007 and it would surely help if I had a bit of prayer help from all of you as well. I have always wanted to write a book. Sounds crazy but ever since I was a little girl I said I would. It has been on every goal list that I've written for as long as I can remember. It's high up in my To Do Before I Die List and I've let Satan push my buttons and tell me that I'm not good enough but not anymore. I truly believe that God wants me to do this because ever second of the day it's there. Here is my dilemma. I've written all of the things that I've wanted to write but what does God want me to write? I have all of this started and I wonder which one does He want me to finish first? I attended a study that Beth Moore conducted and I was mesmerized by her and her ability to take God's Word and make it so practical and a big part of me when I was watching her kept saying "Wow that's what I would love to do"! That's what juices me up teaching and learning and writing and spending time with other women. That was a big learning for me last year. Ok back on track here is what I need you to pray. Please pray that as I start the year and as I walk every day that each day I would be open to God's plan for my life. As I start down this path that I would have my eyes and ears open to Him and His desires and that as I pursue this dream that He would affirm it or not affirm it so that I can move on. Pray that as I write I write what He directs me to. I will always write I can't help it. How awesome to be able to use it to make a difference in His Kingdom! So there it is the list is done. I'm off this morning to move more and go for a long walk to reflect, rejoice, relax and rejuvenate my Spirit. Happy New Year to you all. I am truly blessed with family, friends and work peers that I truly love and are always there for me. I couldn't do what I do without each of you. Love you all!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Well with Christmas over and the New Year about to begin we are getting closer and closer to our travel date. We really had a great Christmas Season. It began with our Classic Christmas Eve service at the church that was a blessing to play in. Son #2 played his Saxophone in a wee bit of a solo...we were so so proud of him. Mom was able to come and see him which was nice. Christmas we had a house full. Eighteen close family friends got together for some Turducken...yum yum good. I got everything I wanted and then some. Just missing my one big present but she'll arrive soon enough. It was great to hear the boys Christmas morning get up as usual and climb on top of Son#2's bed and open thier Christmas socks. I don't care how old they are it really was so sweet to hear them laugh and yack with each other. I tried to slow down the present opening but oh well it lasted for a wee bit. We had our traditional Christmas breakfast that we love except Son #2 informed us this year he hates it so we had the traditional breakfast plus something for him which apparently he didn't like either. Too funny. More for us! Boxing Day four of us went to see "In Pursuit of Happyness". It kind of drained me. Even though it was a good ending well I just felt blah afterwards. We went for more food at a friends house on the evening of the 26th. I worked the 27th, 28th and 29th. It was pretty slack though not much going on. Working towards buying things for our trip. Picked up a car seat today and a goob of other stuff bottles, blankets, clothes way too much to mention. Let's just say it ain't cheap! Fortunately we are blessed an got a good wad of money in Sears Gift Certificates which came in very very handy today. New Years Eve will be quiet at our house. Were not feeling very partyish this year. We are going to get a movie and Chinese food and kick back and just hang with Son #2 because Son #1 is away. He worked most of the holidays and now is away visiting friends. First trip away on his own. He's growing up so fast. Pretty awesome kids though. Emily has got two of the best big brothers she could ever hope or pray for. We are counting down the days and they are flying by now. We have to get our plane tickets reprinted tomorrow. I've already gone once and they restickered them with a sticker written in Gel pen on shiny paper. One big smudge. Now it looks like we printed the tickets with a sharpy. I'm not too comfortable travelling out of the country with those. I'll just have to pray that we get a nicer ticket agent. The last one wasn't having any part of reprinting them. I was told by Aeroplan to insist, obviously they've never dealt with an Air Canada Ticket agent. I'll just have to smile and take my DH with me. Let's see what that gets us. Happy New Year to everyone reading this. Please continue to pray that these next few weeks are productive and that we are organized for this trip that we've only had 2 years to prepare for! Pray for Emily and that God continues to wrap His loving arms around her and that she is not afraid of us when we take her from the orphanage. Until 2007 goodnight!

What A Week!

This post will be a bigger one because I have to fill you in on what has happened this week. Let me start my saying God is AMAZING! It never ceases to amaze me how He has blessed our family. My week started early Monday morning. I have to go back three weeks to tell you about a conversation that I had with Son #1. There is a radio station in town that has a weather guarantee. If the weather guy misses the temperature by more than 3 degrees you have the chance to win a jackpot. Depending on how long he has been right is the amount of the jackpot. I told Son#1 to remind me to send in my name because it has been warm, cold, warm, freezing surely he'd get it wrong soon. I never thought anything more about it until Monday morning when my Son is calling and calling on our home phone. First thing he said was "I forgot to tell you I entered your name in the weather guarantee" second thing was YOU JUST WON! How much? $1575 dollars. How incredible is that. We prayed that Matt and Andrew would be able to travel with us and so far we go their tickets on points and now much of their travelling money will be covered with this win. It is truly such a relief that they can come and we can experience this as a family. That was Monday. Tuesday I received a call from Community service saying that our Notice of Coming had arrived. Yahoo this was our travel approval we had been waiting for which means our travel date shouldn't change again and the boys are definitely able to go. Mike picked up our certificate Tuesday afternoon. It was great to have it in our hands. I woke up Wednesday morning to check my email before work and low and behold there was an update from our adoption facilitator giving us measurements and A PICTURE OF EMILY on December 18th! What an incredible Christmas present from the Lord! She is so cute. Big ole head of hair, beautiful lips (Son #1 says like Angelina Jolie's) and a big hunka bunka. She is growing so well and I just want to hold her and bring her home. I was so glad to have this picture because she isn't the little baby in the picture anymore she's changed her looks so it's good to understand that. Thursday we received confirmation that we will in fact be able to visit her orphanage when we go to China. This hasn't been allowed much and we will actually go inside to see but can't go in the baby rooms. I'm praying that we will have some time to get a picture of her finding place. Things are getting so busy for Christmas. I want to make sure to truly enjoy this Christmas. I'm not going to be sad for Emily because I know she is being looked after and this is the last Christmas that it will be just the four of us and I don't want to wish that away. Our time is coming quickly when we will be leaving. We received our itinerary today which is exciting. Thanks to all of you who have been following this and who have been praying for us. It is so evident that we are covered by your prayers and that God has it all worked out. I am so grateful that we stepped out of our comfort zones on this one. I can't imagine that we almost missed this. We almost said no God not now we're too old. We would have never known the joy that our family is feeling now. Pray for Emily that God will protect her over these next few weeks, please pray that she bonds with us and that the transition from her caretaker to us will go smoothly. Merry Christmas to all of you. May your holidays be filled with friends, fellowship, food, fun and of course the knowledge that God sent His Son as a little baby to live with us, as one of us. How incredible is that! As the time approaches for us to leave I will be password protecting this Blog so that we can post family pictures on it. Not to worry I will let all of you know what it is so you can keep following along however with personal pictures on it I don't want to just open it to the world. I kind of feel bad because I've been following other blogs for a couple of years and they have been awesome but I just don't want to take the chance. I'll email the password to each of you as the time arrives.

I was had again!

Well I was had again! In a good way. After coming back from lunch at work one of the girls asked me if she could speak to me in the boardroom for a minute. When I opened the door...surprize...again. I must be losing it in my old age. That's twice within 2weeks that I was left with my mouth hanging open. I got such lovely things for Emily from the girls at work it really was touching. Here also was the incredible thing. I had in my mind a stroller that I wanted to get, the jogger stroller (don't laugh), it had big old wheels for our country roads and who knows maybe just maybe I might someday want to walk faster than a stroll and low and behold my team bought me the exact stroller I was looking at. How incredible is that. They picked it out for me and put it together and had it all set up and gave me a crash course on how to operate it. Don't laugh it has a hand brake just in case I go too fast. What a hoot. We truly are blessed. Now that Christmas is almost here I'm more focused on getting our tree decorated and presents wrapped and well I still don't have the babies room finished. Good friends helped put the crib together which is still sitting in my diningroom because it won't fit through the bedroom door and my DH has to take it apart again in order to move it. I'll leave it at that. It will get done after turkey season is over cause he's flat out busy making turduckens. We finally got the 12ish foot Christmas tree up we bought. I don't know what I was thinking. I love it but well to decorate we need a couple of big old ladders and a family of boys who would rather eat glass than decorate a tree. I just get the blank stares and loads of excuses but oh they are so going to help me tomorrow put those lights on. DH has been shopping for me for a couple of weeks which is nice cause he usually waits and is actually finished early. Gotta love him. Anyway that's all for now I'm headed upstairs to watch "It's a Wonderful Life" with son #2.